“In other words, the latest BP gusher is not about a pocket of oil that will soon empty out,
BP has pierced the circulatory system of the Mother and she is bleeding!
This is the great cataclysm of our times that will likely cause mass extinctions of many species. (Barbara Hand Clow)”
My only daughter, Isabella Camille, died of dysentery when she was two years old. She died in my arms. Actually she spent the last moments of her life in my arms breathing her way to another dimension.
My aunt, a very religious woman, upon hearing of these circumstances, held me in her arms and whispered that this ways God’s gift to me. A gift? I couldn’t imagine anything about Isabella’s death being a gift. It was heart-wrenching, to say the least. It was a terribly tragic family event that was shared by my friends and the island community at large. It was devastating and continues to be the most painful memories of mine and my immediate family’s life. There was no gift, in my opinion, in my daughter dying.
Isabella died over five years ago. I was the first one in my family to acknowledge and accept that she was dying. My husband and sons were still running around, making phone calls, talking to doctors, crying, hoping, and doing anything distracting. Most obviously, they were in denial that she could possibly die, that the universe could possibly be serving us such a reality. Meanwhile, I understood the immensity of what was occurring and decided to be very present with Isabella in her last moments. Like a master yogini, she used her breath to carry her spirit away and I took every one of those last breaths with her. Like a doula who assists a mother during her birth process, I was a mother witnessing her daughter’s passing.
From the moment BP’s disaster occurred, I knew we were in the deep end for real now. The world that we have known is dying. If you do not see this simple fact, it is because you choose not to. It might be easier for you to distract yourself through theses times with action, movement and unending service. I know the longer one remains in frenzied motion or denial, the harder it is to awaken to the truth. I find it interesting how many people, in regards to the oil spill, are saying, “Obama isn’t doing anything, he isn’t doing enough”. I am sorry to be the harbinger of this information but there is nothing truly to do at this point in time. We are desperately in need of divine intervention, nothing short of a miracle will suffice. Meanwhile, we must gently hold our mother, be present with her through these end times, accept the forces of nature that choose to express her pains and breathe with her as she moves into the fifth dimension. We must bear witness to her death throes; and be present with her as doula for her imminent re-birth.
Today, many moons away from Isabella’s death, I think I understand my aunt’s comments…
Since I have already traversed this death terrain with my daughter, I am fully beginning to understand that I am a strong bridge from our old world to the promise land. I seem to have a foot in both worlds having full well experienced the peace of death and the miracle of birth; death and birth: their energies are the same.
earthquakes shaking, breathe
volcanoes erupting, breathe,
hurricane coming, breathe,
oil spilling, breathe,
economy crashing, breathe,
species, systems, people and our old world dying, breathe,
painful labor contractions, breathe,
and through your deep, steady breaths, you will be guided to right and timely participation in the birth of our new earth.
For all those already thriving in the new energy, you are so blessed, lucky even…
for all those attempting to find their way… cross my path, I am your bridge.
As the Maya say, our world will go dark for three days and three nights, then, we will wake up under a new sun, a new earth;
we are almost there, (less than 500 days til calendar completes itself- Oct. 2011(www.mayanportal.com)).
“What is about to transpire now is in other words not something that has ever happened before in the history of the universe. Maybe this impending change, partially unknown, causes the widespread denial that I feel dominate many people at the current moment.” (Carl Calleman)