IxChel! I first heard about this goddess in 1994 when the book Sastun, by Dr. Rosita Arvigo, floated into my life. I read the book in one sitting, in one night. Being of Belizean heritage, this story of an American woman who lived in the jungles of Belize, studying herbs with one of the last known Mayan shaman healers of the region, had me absolutely intrigued and awakened. Within six weeks of reading this true account of Dr. Rosita and Don Elijio Panti’s life, I was packed and moving to Belize. Little did I know, at the time, the Goddess had beckoned.
I had a wild idea… and the Fool/Maiden (Tarot Card 0) set that journey in motion. I found myself in a canoe on the Macal River in Belize, with a Mayan man, being rowed six miles upriver to Ixchel Farm, home and workplace of Dr. Rosita Arvigo. Although I had the moxy to get myself to her doorstep, I didn’t quite have the self esteem to pronounce that I wanted to be her next apprentice. Whatever did stumble out of my mouth, I’ll never quite forget her reply. She told me I was unseasoned for work in the jungle, that I was a young girl who needed some life experience. She told me to go have a baby.
Well, since she was my absolute heroine for the moment. I took her advice seriously, and quite literally. Without a husband, man or prospect of any mate, I decided it was time to have a child. Quite honestly, a strong biological urge had been nagging me to do just this. So without further ado, the next man who showed interest was my prey. Hence, began my journey into motherhood. I was living on a three mile island, Caye Caulker, Belize and had been forbidden by the local health officials to deliver my first child at home, seeing as how there was no doctor, not to mention a hospital, on the island. I do believe this is where my true relationship with Ixchel, a fellow Caribbean islander, Goddess of fertility, childbirth, healing & herbs, rainbow, the moon and all female issues, began in earnest.
I called Dr. Rosita to ask for her advice in locating a midwife. I was determined to stay at home, like my Belizean grandmother before me, who had all twelve kids in the family home. Dr. Rosita referred me to one of her main herbal teachers and ally’s in Belize; the lovely, kind Hortence Robinson, who could neither read or write, but had delivered over 2000 babies in her career as a midwife. Needless to say, all went very well and my first son Angel entered the world, not quite as we all planned, but safe and sound, on a wooden terrace in the tropics, with his Papa, my black cat Eclipse and the seagrape tree as witnesses. Hortence arrived shortly post delivery, but just in time to facilitate my after-care, which is where I began to experience firsthand Belize’s deep & rich history with massage, abdominal care, vaginal steams and herbs; all treatments over which Ixchel definitely presides.
True to my lot in life, ever keen to take on more than I can manage, I went on to have five lovely children as the Empress (Tarot Card 3) walked hand in hand with me for many years. Each and every child was delivered at home, three, in the conscientious care of indigenous midwives, and two, mysteriously, of my own accord. Again, this is where Ixchel guided and led me through these deep rites of passage & initiations to womanhood. I’m gonna be honest, nothing is going to make you feel stronger than delivering your own babies. (please note: I’m not recommending anyone to run out and do anything quite so steeped in the unknown).
Living in Meso-America will keep you right in the arms of Ixchel and once you have called upon her, be prepared to meet her in all her aspects. She can be depicted as a beautiful Maiden holding onto her rabbit, bringing fertility, abundance and all the hope of youth. She can be depicted as the caring Mother weaving the dreams of her life and the universe, working with the healing herbs, and offering her good medicine. She can also be depicted as the Crone, the cosmic midwife and the destroyer, accompanied by the transformational snake on her head, wearing crossbones on her skirt and pouring out a water jug onto the Earth that may bring floods and rainstorms of destruction.
I came to know her in every aspect she choose to appear. As the Maiden she gifted me with endless fertility. As the Mother, she offered me multiple webs to weave in which to care for my family. As the Crone, she came to teach me about death, decay and tragic loss.
Shockingly, my fourth child and only daughter died (Tarot Card 13) on the island, at age two, of dysenterry. My tropical dream was no longer so magical. The path I walked, no-one coveted. Ergo, Ix-Chel could not remain my most venerated Deity. She was a force with whom to be reckoned. I had to blame someone. I blamed God/dess. I was a grief-stricken mother whose spiritual path had failed her, a woman with no religion, a born-again atheist.
I relocated back to the USA to a small town, Ashland, Oregon (Tarot Card 16, the Tower). I was driving one day with my friend, shortly after arriving, a huge double rainbow extended itself from one side of our 4 mile by 4 mile town, to the other. It was so magnificent, we stopped the car to admire the width and breath and beauty of these rainbows (the picture below does not do the rainbow proper justice). Although my friend could not possibly know the context of this appearance, I knew this was IxChel, The Lady Rainbow herself, communicating that she was indeed with me, that she had actually never forsaken me, and that I was to carry her with me to this new land. The Goddess diaspora is real. Atheism is terribly lonely.
I surrendered to the spiritual journey once again and began my small practice of spiritual healing with a few humble offerings, but with IxChel always at my side as my patron guide & goddess. It took six years in Ashland to come alive and heed her call to return to Belize to work with Dr. Rosita Arvigo in earnest. Thus, I arrived at IxChel Farm, 24 years after my initial pilgrimage, this time by road & vehicle, carrying 24 pounds of rose quartz for my daughters grave, and enrolled as a student to participate in a Mayan spiritual healing course being offered to learn the art of spiritual bathing. A dream realized. Some things take time.
I needed each and every one of the multiple herbal flower baths we took through these trainings. Layers upon layers of memories and grief were released into the land of Belize at IxChel Farm.
I came to realize that due to Dr. Rosita’s life path and story, she had brought me numerous gifts: she lured me back to my homeland where I could establish real roots in sweet Belize, she gifted me the omnipotent IxChel, she encouraged me to get on with my life as a mother, she guides me in healing with the plants and herbs of Belize, but most importantly, she opened the door for me to find my true life calling and purpose (Tarot Card 21, the World).
As I approach menopause and the crone phase of life, I am busy researching a trip to Isla de Mujeres, the Island of Women, in Mexico which was IxChel’s original home. I am spiritually preparing for this epic ceremonial pilgrimage to Her power place. Historically women travelled to island three times in their life, to consecrate their menstruation, to pray for fertility & safe passage with childbirth and to bring offerings at menopause. I am gathering up my gifts: jade, clay statues, cocoa beans, turquoise, and hand woven objects; and planning, as well as anyone can plan for such a journey. Lady Rainbow has looked after me and it is soon time to pay homage to this mysterious Goddess of the Moon (Tarot Card, 18).
This true tale, obviously, is to be continued…
In the Temple of Ixchel
I have come with my sisters before
where aqua waters arc their constant caress
around the southern point of the island.
Now when the ruins are nearly disappeared,
I walk this path that curves above the cliffs,
but once before,
I prayed and sang in procession.
Once before we laughed to be so safe
in the Temple of Ix Chelab Yax.
Faint music from the past—
flute and voice, gull,
something sweetly strung—
all for Her, the Fecund Mother.
Here I greet my gone-before,
who nods in glad surprise
to me, her elder descendant.
I walk the sea wall singing
for Daughter IxChel, for Mama Tonantzin.
The rocks remain, and the rolling sea,
where I return to honor Her.
Ask, Ixchel demands. And so, again, I do.
Goddess of Conception, change my view
and let me trust in Love.
Goddess of Birth,
in the time of the fifth sun, may I give light,
and may I learn to receive it.
Goddess of all Nurture,
grant that I and the world be done with blaming.
May I with the earth, rise as your daughter,
free and whole in love.
©Susa Silvermarie 2013
Denai Grace Fuller, Cihuatochtli, is a Mama of five, Tarot Guide, Acolyte of IxChel, spiritual healer, flower essence practitioner, flower alchemist and student of Nahualism. She can be found @ http://www.moonflowermedicine.love
It was in 1992, I believe, that I was doing research on traditional Mayan healing. Amazingly, it was in a medical library in Kansas City MO that I stumbled on a small booklet of herbal healing in which Rosita Arvigo was mentioned.
I wanted her story.
I wrote and said I’d like to write a book about her, and she wrote back saying someone else was just then undertaking the writing and research.
I was seriously disappointed. I shoved it all out of my mind. But now, I am well into cronedom, age 72. And in the last several months I’ve realized I must go to Belize. I must meet Rosita Arvigo. I must.
I may be seeing you soon.
Absolutely, do go and manifest the dream! Maybe there is another book on her life to be written at this point in time. May Ix-Chel lead the way!
Hi 😉 great article and great talking To you not sure I’m moving to Seattle now ??? Will keep you posted. I’m really impressed with your viewS and outlook thanks for being my friend
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Hello Mary! I hope it all works out for the highest good… full moon approaching, time to lay down your prayers for what you intend. See you in Mt. Shasta!!