Winter Solstice 2011 to Winter Solstice 2012: The Promise

Winter hibernation, cold, snow, retreat, rest, retire,
gather, share, meditate, cook, ignite with fire,
embrace, retrospect, die to be born…
take a deep breath, as we catapult into the Great Unknown-

Winter! The word and the concept have taken on a whole new meaning… I still cannot quite wrap my mind around the fact that I am no longer in my Caribbean home, but located now in the small and extremely privileged mountain town of Ashland, Oregon. I met a man here who claims to be the gatekeeper of Mt.Shasta heralding 22 years on the mountain as a guide. He profusely thanked me for bringing the south to the north, for carrying the energies of Mayaland to the Pacific Northwest, but specifically to this area. He firmly believes that the mountain called and I answered. To tell the truth I have no idea why I was moved (spiritually/geographically) but I was… and now I am here to embrace an earth winter (which incidentally will be the first one in my 42 years on the Earth plane as I have always been located in very warm places). I am sure it is no accident that this is where I will be for the Winter of 2011-2012. Did the polar shift occur? Possibly, I missed it, cause my whole world sure is turned upside down. Not to mention that my menstrual cycle has once again done a flip-aroo placing me back on an old and familiar cycle time.

Last year started off with a bang as all the animal die off stories rolled in and collectively we knew we were in for a very intense year…I don’t know of anyone who escaped big lessons, big moves, big losses, big gains, big pains, big releases, big grief, big rage as an unrelenting energy pulsating with change poured in from the galactic unknown… Hunab Ku- we feel you, like never before. Most of the time I simply wanted to get away from myself and yet, there was nowhere to go and nothing to assist with that form of escape. It was time to simply turn and face the mirror, hence, greet the light (which is blinding). “This last year has been difficult for many of us. The amount of energy coming to our planet now exceeds anything we have ever experienced before. Energy and life itself has been sped up! Many of us are experiencing significant changes in our personal, professional, spiritual and public lives. This is because, as Grandfather Eesawu taught, in the days of great change we will each go through being put into the great sieve and shaken up, letting everything that does not support your highest self and greatest good fall away. Not one of us can escape this.” (Little Grandmother)

2011 was a practice run for what we will now all greet in 2012… if you have become proficient in the new energies, then you shall fare well in these next moons and months, which promise to be historically monumental. Just think, 2012. Collectively so much fear has been instilled into the mass consciousness that humanity can’t help but create a few disaster scenarios. On the other hand, 2012 is the date for the much awaited alignment of the Sun with the Galactic Equator, a planetary sigh and pause of our Creator, Hunab Ku, as the Great Source speaks to humanity, “aahhh, perfection has been achieved!” Afterall, a multi-thousand-year strategy to reorient Humankind back to its intended, healthy polarity is about to occur” (Ken Carey) or I would say “is occurring”!

“On December 21, 2012, something will occur in our galaxy that happens only once every 26,000 years. Our sun will line up with the center of our galaxy, or the “galactic equator”, during the Winter Solstice. Many present-day astronomers, as well as those from the Mayan civilization 1500 years ago, believe this will cause a catastrophic event. Others believe it to be little more than a cycle – which has taken place since the universe was formed – and will be just another day.”

Just another day, now that’s funny, and it might be true, December 21, 2012 may be just another day but there will be nothing ordinary about all the days building up to that particular date. Can you feel it? We are in the time of no time, the prophecies are being fulfilled, the much awaited signs have been accounted for and we are heap deep entrenched on entering the new age with some unforgettable moments… Little Grandmother is constantly reminding us that the poles are indeed shifting. I just love Ken Carey’s view and opinion on this topic as he believes the poles are shifting in our minds.

“Our species mental polarity shift is by far the most critical of all—for it will fundamentally flip our perception upside down and inside out, and I mean that literally. It will also instantly negate many of our still primitive (and some downright reptilian!) assumptions. This reversal will trigger tremendous and monumental changes across the face of the earth. When we change our minds, the world is changed. Simply described, it is the polarity reversal that will result in human decision-making no longer being distorted by fear, but instead becoming creatively super-motivated by one or more of Love’s countless intentions to bring out the full universal potential of our now-earth-bound experience. Our every thought and our every action will soon be harmoniously motivated by Love, as they are now disharmoniously distorted by Fear.” (Ken Carey, The Starseed Transmissions)

So like the caress of a lover, the hug of a mother, the smell of a rose in bloom, the taste of delectable chocolate bon-bons, the first sip of a fine wine… the promise has been extended, and that is our arrival into the heartland, a world where the mind has awakened. Believe it or not, all 7 billion of us are in this awakening process together and if you are alert then you will hear the stories of the ancient and the modern and the future… and in these stories, you will find your own divine blueprint which will be guided by the heart and motivated by love. Will it be easy? Haha, Is childbirth easy? No, this labor of love will be accomplished unmedicated, mostly unassisted and always with the forces of nature at our side. we are actually knee-deep in birth fluids and blood, just a few more primal screams and one good push…

I have become aware in this birth process of my own deep cellular memories of catastrophe, gripped by a core fear of impending earth doom, uncomprehending of the true ascension energies, I gave way to a vision of doom and believed in a tale of tragedy. I am birthing and purging, I am pushing forward while vomiting energetic debris. I wouldn’t mind exciting the Earth but it’s not to be as I am here to witness the grand finale of this tale being told. I am here to usher in a good birth, after all, that is my expertise.

Navajo Changing Woman

An Indian Prayer

Whose voice I hear in the winds,
And whose breath gives life to all the world,
hear me! I am small and weak, I need your
strength and wisdom.

Let Me Walk In Beauty, and make my eyes
ever behold the red and purple sunset.

Make My Hands Respect the things you have
made and my ears sharp to hear your voice.

Make Me Wise so that I may understand the
things you have taught my people.

Let Me Learn the lessons you have hidden
in every leaf and rock.

I Seek Strength, not to be greater than my
brother, but to fight my greatest

Make Me Always Ready to come to you with
clean hands and straight eyes.

So When Life Fades, as the fading sunset,
my spirit may come to you
without shame.

(translated by Lakota Sioux Chief Yellow Lark in 1887)

The Great Purification: Cauac

“I am Cauac,

initiation of fire on the water,

purple flaming pyre,

and winnowing rain of final surrender.

If you seek my rapture,

my unspeakable passion for wholeness will purify you,

searing the very foundations on which

you have built your most cherished illusions.”

(The Mayan Oracle)

On the Mayan Calendar, this glyph portends a time of profound quickening and extreme purification.  Cauac’s known qualities are purification, transformation, reunion, light body, activation for ascension, thunderbeings, lightning path, initiation by fire and the ecstasy of freedom.  My guides kept whispering the words “purge” to me for over one month but I couldn’t quite grab the gist of what they wanted me to transmit.  It took my husband actually getting very sick with food poisoning to make the point painfully clear.  In his 9 days of illness, he physically purged “everything” held in his system, then he had to revive his body with good nutrition, rest, sunshine, love and gentleness in the days that followed.  He told me he came to his personal wall of death and had to make a decision to stay or go.  He went about the Great Purification quite literally, I believe most of us will accomplish this same feat, literally or figuratively.  It is more than clear to me that the time has come to shed all unwanted debris, if you choose to or not.

Some people have been experiencing the purge as their structures fall away to be rearranged, or their relationships undergo endings and transitions, or their emotions overwhelm them to the point of medication and/or their physical bodies experience daily unheard of  aches and pains.  In the time of Cauac, one must clear the old karmas, release the old stories & judgements, let go of the unhealthy patterns and basically get your bodies in shape to be a light vehicle and sacred temple.  Afterall, we are on a spiritual journey and light mission, remember?

Facebook is so timely.  I have never experienced anything quite like this networking & communication tool that allows the timelines of the past, present and future to collide.  Did you think you could escape the old lover and your issues/karma together?  Oh no, he/she just found you on facebook!  Even your enemies are asking to be your facebook friends.  You can’t run, nor can you hide in this energy…it is time to face all one’s thoughts, for better or worse, and to reconcile all one’s feelings towards others, for better or worse.

Facebook is also an incredible marketing tool as so many of us have come to realize as we create personal or business fan clubs.  But Facebook is currently under scrutiny having experienced “privacy issues”.  The world is in uproar that their privacy has been invaded.  Kid yourself not- there is no privacy left.  As we move towards a telepathic, transparent planet, there is nothing that can be hidden, nothing to safeguard from the masses, no secret contracts to tuck away into the safety boxes by night.  Like the original people of Jean Auel’s  Clan of the Cave Bear, no-one can lie or deceive.  No-one would even attempt to lie as it would be painfully obvious, unheard of, strange and absolutely without dignity.  Behave now as if everyone can read your mind because  in a blink of time everyone will be able to read your mind and yes, we can actually thank visionary Mark Zuckerman and his Facebook for blasting open the telepathic paths & portals of the future.

Our world is so full of magic, it always has been.  On May 8th a new crop circle was created and discovered.  The design shed more clarity on this “purge”.  A world below ascending towards a new world.  A world above, descending to give assistance.  A new world created by the merging of the two.  Imagine though, in this new world created from the two- heavy, dense frequencies cannot be imported.  They must be purged from our systems so that we can safely arrive to meet our galactic neighbors.

At the moment our world is so riddled with dangers.  Volatile, unpredictable, insecure moments.  We are truly in the pregnancy time, 8th month, when Mama Earth herself is feeling overwhelmed by her upcoming birth.  I can remember this time in my own pregnancies when all I wanted to do was vomit due to the immense realization that I was in a situation that was going to be very intense.   Yes, we, as the human race, are all in the very, very deep end of the sea.   And at this moment, the sea is about to choke us for lack of oxygen or slick us full of seeping oil that can’t seem to cease its flow.  I am requesting all shamans to kindly step to the scene to play rescue on this ridiculous man-made disaster.  Or maybe its just part of  the plan:  part of our current earth game, “as the purge continues”.   Our galactic friends do seem to be reminding us that even through the overwhelming purge symptoms, we can actually be beautiful pregnant mama awaiting her birth in joyful anticipation (see first crop circle of 2010 below).

We have moved through the frist half of the 6th galactic night (mayan calendar).  The second half is suppose to be more action packed, more intense in the astrological alignments we will be facing and faster, so much faster!  See if you can wrap your mind around that.  Barbara Hand Clow said, ” Personally, I’ve found the pace of time acceleration during the Galactic Night Six to be almost unbearable.”   I couldn’t agree more. I am getting a royal ass kicking at the moment.  She further states that “There is no longer any question that time acceleration is influencing our times, as we seem to be in the middle of a new level of increase. Since the Spring Equinox, there has been a rapid wind-up of events in the world that makes many of us feel like reality is transforming three times faster.”  Faster and faster- round and round we go- there’s certainly no stopping the show now.

And Aluna Joy who felt the energies of the first crop circle descend on the evening of May 8th as she was in group meditation says she is  “noticing many symptoms of this new activation. Time and space is beginning to wobble even more erratically than before. We seem to be loosing track of time easily. The day simply disappears. We are not sleeping very well . . . again. There is lots of tossing and turning in the night. We are hearing reports of many unusual dreams. We are feeling huge power surges followed by energy drop-outs. There were many reports of nausea, and body aches and pains. Many felt deep grief.  Some felt like they were walking on water. Others said that when they closed their eyes at night, everything was spinning. There have been visual disturbances, inner ear issues, throat and thyroid issues, cold feet (from being between worlds) and even a weird symptom of having tongue dryness. These symptoms are already subsiding here in Sedona, but they seem to be spreading across the earth quickly.”

Cauac, the great purification of the body temple.  Cauac, the lightning storm that shatters all illusions.  Cauac, the initiation by fire that moves us from separation to ascension.  Cauac, the final transformation.  Welcome- it is your time!

This full moon is known as “baptism under fire”,

maybe they are going to light up the oil on the sea as some have discussed-

In light and love,


The Time of No Time: Beltane!

“Love is not a habit, a commitment or a debt.

Love simply is!”

(Paulo Coelho)

Around the medicine wheel of life we go, from season to season (solstice to equinox), the cardinal points and their mid-points speak the ancient cycles of time.  It is so important to acknowledge, honour and celebrate nature’s auspicious times.  If we are to restore spiritual order and harmony to our Earth, if we are to return to a balanced ecosystem, then we must keep the ancient earth holidays in some way. Why do you think the indigenous cultures of our world place so much emphasis on their sacred holidays and celebrations?  These are the times of heartfelt reverence and traditional worship!

Remember Samhain?   October 31st, when the veils are very thin and one can easily reach into the spiritual world of the ancestors through remembrance, offerings and ritual.  Samhain is about honoring Death, mentally and spiritually preparing oneself for the oncoming harsh Winter months when the Earth is under her death spell.    Beltane, May 1st, on the other hand, is when the veils are extremely thin again and we are honouring Life. “When the veils are so thin it is an extremely magical time, it is said that the Queen of the Faeries rides out on her white horse. Roving about on Beltane Eve,  She will try to entice people away to the fairyland” (C. Aubin).  We may use this time then to reach into the magical and mystical world of the unseen, offering spring flowers, fire and our own bodies as payment for an abundant, hot and pleasurable Summer.

“The beginning of the summer heralds an important time, for the winter is a difficult journey and weariness and disheartenment set in, personally, one is tired down to the soul.  In times past, the food stocks were low; variety was a distant memory.  The drab non-color of winter’s end perfectly represents the dullness and fatigue that permeates on so many levels to this day.  We need Beltane, as the earth needs the sun, for our very Spirit cries out for the renewal of Summers’ jubilation” (Christina Aubin).

Beltane is often called “the time of no time”, just like our current shift of ages.   “This shift was and has been referred to as the ‘Time of no Time’. We are currently in the transition period of the fourth dimension which creates the illusion of being stuck in a time warp as Earth goes through a rapid shift in time and space” (Red Lotus). If our current time on the Gregorian Calendar has been termed  “the time of no time” then, I speculate, that we must honour this holiday even more so than ever before.  This Beltane, I believe, is an important one before we are thrown into hyperspeed change-shift-destabilizing- to awakening on Planet Earth.

Years ago, I was speaking with a good girlfriend of mine on my porch, our husbands were in the house.  We were enthusiastically talking about all the old pagan laws surrounding Beltane, especially the law regarding removing our wedding rings for a night.  I jokingly said, “let us make sure to keep this alive for our daughters”.  She replied, “Why for our daughters?  What about us?”  In that moment, we were two women who supported each other in our sexual freedom, despite our husbands irritated opinions on the matter.  Ten years later, she is divorced and well, my marriage has been shaken to its core by Beltane.  Little did I know at the time, that part of my large energetic work and service to humanity and the earth, part of my soul agreement and personal purpose, was to revive Beltane in all its glory.

What then is this holiday that can cause such excitement and turmoil?  Beltane means fire of Bel; Belinos being one name for the Sun God who is celebrated on  May 1st.  Beltane, or Mayday as it is called, is celebrated with festivities typically beginning the evening before, on the last night of April.  Large community bonfires are created, fire being a crucial and important element of this holiday.  Maypoles, large poles, are erected.  The Maypole is one of the traditional symbols of Beltane, and let’s not kid ourselves about its purpose: it’s a giant phallus representing fecundity.  Young people would spend the entire night in the woods “A-Maying,” and then dance around the phallic Maypole the next morning.  This was when couples (and probably more than a few surprised triads) came staggering in from the fields, clothes in disarray and straw in their hair after a night of bonfire-inspired lustiness.  Older married couples were allowed to remove their wedding rings (and the restrictions they imply) for this one night. Young couples could undertake the greenwood marriage (an unofficial marriage which would last one year and a day).  The pious Puritans were outraged by the debauchery of Beltane celebrations.  In fact, they made Maypoles and greenwood marriages illegal in the mid 1600’s. (Everyone seems to have forgotten the deadwood divorces which can be used once a relationship hits its “deadwood” phase).

I am a Keeper and Protector of the Beltane Sabbat Celebration.  In fact, I initiated a long forgotten tradition called the deadwood divorce:  older married couples experiencing strife and stagnation could remove their rings for a year and a day:  an agreed upon seperation in order to explore other life paths:

“Love fills everything.

It cannot be desired because it is and end in itself.

It cannot betray because it has nothing to do with possession.

It cannot be held prisoner because  it is a river and will overflow its banks.

Anyone who tries to imprison love will cut off the spring that feeds it, and the trapped water will grow stagnant and rank.”

(Paulo Coelho)

At the end of the greenwood or deadwood time, the couples in question would have to decide how to proceed further with either their marriage or their divorce.

One year, not so long ago, I decided to have a grand Beltane party in my garden that I called the Maypole Dance.  I found a long pole, traditionally used on the island for hauling up the lobster traps from the sea floor, that was over 20 feet in length.  I decorated that pole with 20 descending purple ribbons 30 feet in length and I had my husband plant the Beltane pole into the ground.  Something about this act felt not only sacred, but ancient.  A few of the older villagers (ages 50-90 years old) approached me saying, “we loved the Maypole dance when we were children, how nice to see it brought back to life on the island”.  I couldn’t believe it, the Mestizo/Mayan community had a remembrance of the Maypole Dance?  I actually thought I was bringing to life a Pagan/Celtic celebration in Mayaland.  Silly me, the Maya have a long history with the Maypole.

“A myth tells of a time when there was a great drought, and food and water grew scarce throughout the land. Five young men decided that they must send a message to their God of fertility so that the rains would return and nurture the soil, and their crops would again flourish. So they went into the forest and searched for the tallest, straightest tree they could find.

When they came upon the perfect tree, they stayed with it overnight, fasting and praying for the tree’s spirit to help them in their quest. The next day they blessed the tree, then felled it and carried it back to their village, never allowing it to touch the ground. Only when they decided upon the perfect location for their ritual, did they set the tree down. The men stripped the tree of its leaves and branches, dug a hole to stand it upright, then blessed the site with ritual offerings. The men adorned their bodies with feathers so that they would appear like birds to the God of Fertility, in hope of attracting the god’s attention to their important request. With vines wrapped around their waists, they secured themselves to the pole and made their plea through their flight and the haunting sound of the flute and drum” (Vanilla Company).

The Mayan of the Yucatan area of Mexico to this day hold elaborate Maypole dances in honour of the Sun God and fertility.  ” Combining ritual, dance, music, poetry, and art, “THE TREE OF LIFE” (maypole) is a meditation on the mystery at the heart of human life.  It calls us to keep the world in balance with our very lives” (Earthdancer).  Each year in my life, the timekeeping of this sacred day simply grows and expands as I instill remembrance & hold permanence in my community and into our new crystal Earth grids.

The Tree Of Life grows
In the Land of Mystery:
There we were created;
There we were born.
There (S)He by whom all things live
Spins the thread of our lives.

Happy Beltane!

Navajo, Danaho Wiyoh (It is said, it is good!)

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Rebirth by Mariette Ravet

For quite some time now, Mother Earth has been very wobbly as the magnetic poles are shifting.  We can contribute this to the fact that our Earth is heavy laden with child (the newly ascended light beings).  Obviously, the inhabitants of this Planet (all of us) will be sharing her experience.  Often this time in a pregnancy ushers in a host of birth pangs:   frustration, nausea, stress, anxiety, nervousness, absent-mindedness, procrastination, worry, heaviness, depression, tension and hopefully, above all, excitement.
Many women enter their 8th month fearing the inevitable experience which is about to descend on them.  In modern times, these women can opt for a drugged out birth or the more infamous Caesarean birth…  In the ascension process (our current birth), there are no drugs or medical procedures available to help us shortcut our way through labor.  There is only one way through the upcoming experience and that is through the vaginal canal or to be more accurate- through the galactic milky way we go, contractions and all.
The eighth month then is quite an intense time as there is no going back to what was.  Often, due to the immensity of the impending future reality, one manifests early birth/fear symptoms.
When I was pregnant with my first child, Angel, I had made elaborate plans for a forthcoming home birth with my chosen traditional Belizean midwife.  Let me mention, this was not an easy “plan” as I live on an island which has no medical doctor, much less a hospital, and the local clinic nurses were insisting that I was not allowed to remain at home. Nonetheless, I persisted.  In the beginning of my eighth month, though, I woke up one morning to extremely real and painful contractions.  I couldn’t believe those contractions were happening.  My mind reeled, “if I went into labor now”, I thought, ” I wouldn’t be able to have my much hoped for home birth “.  I was devastated, yet, the contractions continued on, wave after to wave, until, with much hesitation and eventual surrender, I prepared to leave my island home for the mainland hospital.  While shedding many tears of frustration, and attempting to bargain with the gods, my contractions came to a sudden halt.  My prayers were answered.
In my ninth month of pregnancy with Angel, at the end of my full term, (I made it), I filled up an outdoor wash basin, one large enough for me to sit in.  I placed my entire body in that water and simply sat for hours on end.  I remember my skin was quite waterlogged and wrinkly due to the hours I spent in that bathtub.  My husband kept checking on me, seeing if I wanted to come out of the tub- I didn’t.  After many hours, I started to feel very strange. I stood up and was immediately slammed by a major contraction.  With full clarity, I understood I was in labor and the water in the tub had been relieving all my symptoms.  I labored for a very short 30 minutes before I pushed my first son into the world assisted by my husband, on our porch, with my cats, the trees and the birds to bear witness.  Needless to say, the midwife didn’t make it to my birth in time.

We are four months into the Mayan Calendar 6th galactic night (November 2009- November 2010), and as I stated in my article of early December 2009 “The Quickening”, this time can be likened to a woman’s 8th month of pregnancy.  Just as I had to come to terms with the inevitable birth of my first son, Angel, so must we all realize, we are about to birth ourselves into the New World.  I have recently heard that there is actually nothing “wrong” with the Earth at this moment, She is simply very pregnant.

(Yemeya by Mariette Ravet)

Since this pregnancy and the latter part of this expecting phase is making us all feel very off kilter, I believe we need to call on the Yoruban-Brazilian Goddess, Yemeya, for assistance with helping us accomplish full surrender to the moment.  “Yemeya, beautiful goddess of the Sea, hear our prayers.  (I offer you papaya, white hibiscus flowers and copal) as this birth feels so scary, incredibly overwhelming, emotionally trying, spiritually difficult and mentally impossible.  Help us to let go, to live in the flow of the present moment and to release all our symptoms to the Great Goddess.  Help us to wait out our time (according to the Mayan Calendar Evolutionary Theory as investigated by Carl Calleman, the eight month ends November 2010, the 9th month ends February 2011, and the birth will last for 260 days until October 2011; thus the Mayan calendar ends) in patience and with joy, knowing full well we deserve a healthy birth of ease.

“What is becoming increasingly clear is that this birth is likely to become very demanding”. “Not only do I think that the upcoming period (he is referring to the 6th galactic night, November 2009- November 2010) will be unusually intense, but also energetically quite complex”,  Carl Calleman. (

Now I know many of our favourite writers, myself included, have been saying that the New World is here, right now, but according to the Mayan Evolutionary Theory, we have yet to deliver this  “baby”.  So I hate to disappoint everyone, but we have until February 2011 until the full brunt of the ascension symptoms reside and another 260 days of labor which makes our expected due date:  October 2011!  Now I know every time I write about the New World being here right now, what I actually mean to say, is that we have indeed outgrown our old structures and are, without a doubt, attempting to dismantle the constructs of the old world.   We are receiving a teaser taste of the New World.  Like a woman in her eighth month who knows her old reality has ceased to exist, but that her new reality has yet to manifest.  We are All also at that point of no return.  But we have yet to actually go through the labor.  And like the old adage goes, it is not called labor for nothing.

In one’s eighth month, it doesn’t help to moan and groan and complain- this isn’t going to make the symptoms go away, this isn’t going to make the baby come any faster.  The eighth month is heavy.  The ninth month is heavier. The labor can go with ease or with extreme difficulty depending on the mother, but it is never accomplished without the required blood, sweat and tears.  This is not meant to be a doom and gloom message, more accurately, a statement to everyone to hang in there with anticipation, joy and excitement.  A new baby is a glorious miracle!

If you familiarize yourself with Calleman’s work, it will become clear- what is about to happen on Planet Earth has never before happened.  His theory states that it has taken 16.4 bllion years to reach this zenith in our consciousness.  “There are for instance those that believe that the end date of the Mayan calendar only marks the end of a cycle and the beginning of a new. On my own part I however think that we are approaching something much more profound than just a point in a cycle that again will be repeated. The only Mayan inscription from ancient times, the Tortuguero monument, which describes the end ( of their calendar says that nine cosmic forces will then manifest. Empirically, there is also overwhelming evidence from modern research that we are approaching a point in time when nine evolutionary levels (so called Underworlds) of the cosmic plan are simultaneously going to be completed. This would imply that we are approaching not another cycle or another shift, but the end to all shifts, which have been driving evolution since the beginning of the universe. Such an end to all shifts could conceivably provide the basis for a harmonious eternal peace on Earth”, Carl Calleman.

Birth, then!  It is such a messed up concept in today’s modern world.  In most cities, the Caesarean rates have reached an all time high between 35-45% and beyond.  Women (and men) are afraid of birth.  I ask how then are we to successfully approach ascension if birth is our model analogy?  May I repeat Calleman?, “What is becoming increasingly clear is that this birth is likely to become very demanding”.  I have said it before, I’ll say it again – we are going to have to breath.  Breathe deeply, become master breatharians .

In response to all the writers and spiritual seekers questioning?  “Are we there yet?”  Oh yes, we are there, at least in our Spirits. Our upcoming birth experience, though, our ascension, is a personal journey into the unknown, a rite of passage that one cannot escape.  Like the aboriginal tribes who demand initiation ceremonies to pass from one stage of life unto the next, so too must we undergo our own personal initiation to the other side, which coincides for everyone with the Mayan Calendars’ closing dates. Our aches and pains at this time are a natural part of the process.   The key to the remainder of the calendar is to surrender, as there is nothing left to “do” on the planet other than prepare ourselves for a beautiful journey and birth.


(Has a request:  Do any of my readers know of a literary agent or children’s book publisher to put me in contact with?)

Kuan Yin’s Waterfall of Compassion in the Great Sorrow of Our Times

I wait,

fear has the taste of metal,

scarcity has the feel of sick,

bless me Goddess for I am your child,

it is too cold in this place.


Over the last month, headaches, fatigue, extreme exhaustion, nausea and body aches have continued to be my ongoing physical symptoms.  Barbara Hand Clow says we are in the “dark night of the soul”, and she’s not kidding, is she?  All my soul’s shadows have creeped up to be examined and I imagine, purged as they cannot live in this new energy.  “Fear is merely excitement without breath”, says Fritz Perls.  I guess I must remember how to breathe, as I spent the better part of the month burrowing in my rabbit hole in extreme fear.  Barbara Hand Clow also stated that this moon and the astrological conjunctions presented abundant creativity and insights for growth.  I felt those small beams of light at times and took advantage of the energy when I could.  What I desired more than anything this moon though was sanctuary!

One of my favourite sanctuary’s is a waterfall in the rainforest of Belize called Clarissa Falls.  The actual waterfall is quite small, but what an explosive sound it creates as it cascades down the foothills of Guatemala into Belize.  Moments after I arrive at this sacred grove, all my worries, stress, and fear simply roll off of my body and into the accepting waters of the Belize River.  In times of need. this place has been my refuge and my Saviouress offering a thorough rejuvenation of my soul.   It is at Clarrisa Falls that I find Kuan Yin sitting at the waterfall in all her splendor and glory.  Patiently, she awaits my confessions of grief, loneliness, sorrow, loss, mistakes or regret.  It is at Clarrisa Falls that Kuan Yin helps me to regain my equilibrium, joy, freedom of spirit and lightness of heart.

Most recently, I was longing for a visit to Clarrisa Falls, hence Kuan Yin, yet, it proved an impossible want. Simultaneously, my neighbor came over to invite me and my children out for a boat ride.  A boat ride which sounded so lovely, especially in the middle of a workday.  My work ethic and mind said, “WORK”.  My playful spirit and heart said, “GO”.  Knowing that I must practice what I preach… I listened to my heart and took the boat ride.  I thought we would just be circling the island with the kids, rather, we ended up anchoring the boat on Belize’s Great Barrier Reef, which is located a mere half mile from my island home.   We killed the engine and what do you know?  The sound of the reef on this particularly still day was as overwhelming as my waterfall.  I heard Kuan Yin softly laugh in the background.  She asked, “You requested my presence?”.

Indeed I had!  “Kuan Yin, Goddess of Mercy, be with us now.  We are in the times of great sorrow and your presence will be much needed!”  Living not too far away, in geographic terms, from Haiti, I am bound to be exposed over the next months to the “mal vientos” (ill winds) that are guareenteed to blow our way.  Allow me to explain… The Maya believe, and I have witnessed firsthand, that ill omens blow in prior to the manifestation of some intense life experience.  The Maya are extremely sensitive to the “feeling’ of the wind.  That is why if the wind feels bad, weird, or strange- they will immediately close all their windows and take shelter from such a wind.  For whosoever should “catch” the wind in their body would be the recipient of the energies yet to come.

In the Lakota tradition, the wind is called Tate.  The wind is one of the sixteen great mysteries of life.  The wind is all that was and all that ever will be. The wind can be gentle and caressing or full of destruction.  The wind always blows softly at first.  If humans do not listen, then the wind will change its course to blow with force.  Let us then listen to the soft breeze which is saying, “We are one”. In the Facebook profile, it asks for your favourite quote.  Mine is by an ex-prime minister of Belize which states, “all of weh deh one” (this translates from Creole to “all of us are one people”).  The new world prerequisites are compassion for our fellow human and their experiences, lending a helping hand if we can, and joining forces to make a better world.

Our new world is here and for some of us life is getting easier, sweeter and making more sense.  A few people understand the energy, the new navigational laws.  A chosen handful are the new leaders, speakers, and visionaries of these times.  Some more conscious souls know how to manuever themselves in this new current, even as the old world is dying at their feet.   Even so, it will be helpful to remember, a dying dinosaur is a dangerous creature.  Haiti is big news NOW, but in a few days or weeks from now, the masses and general public of the western world will have forgotten Haiti and will have gone on to the next most newsworthy story.  Haiti’s problems though have just begun.  Haiti’s dilemma could be one of our world’s dinosaurs if we are not careful.  If a compassionate world can tackle these problems, then Haiti presents an immense opportunity for new growth and for rebuilding with green shoots.  Haiti can actually become the promise of the new world (as we have witnessed by the world’s heartfelt generosity) .  If the Haitians are left forgotten and forsaken, do not for a moment believe that we will be immune to their circumstances.  Winds blow and they blow where they must.

The year 2004 ,which gave us the catastrophic tsunami of Indonesia, blew the “mal vientos” into my life.   Three days after this particular tsunami, I was also invited out onto a boat with my children.  The captain, unbeknownst to me at the time, drove the boat out onto the great “blue” (the Caribbean Sea, instead of inside the reef where I live) where the winds were blowing wild.  Two of my children proceeded to get motion sickness and vomit.  Two of my other children and myself later that night got sick with flu-like symptoms.  One week after the tsunami, my daughter Isabella died.  Her diagnosis was an extremely fast moving bacterial infection, something akin to dysentery.  The head of pediatrics at our local hospital was our doctor.  He proceeded to order, through the state health department, an island wide search of all the places I had eaten and visited in the month preceeding our sickness.  He, at first thought that the island of Caye Caulker may have an epidemic on their hands.  I told the doctor of our trip to sea and that I had a strong suspicion that we had all contracted something airborne (from the tsunami).  As the health department could find no source of illness in the water sources used in the restaurants or my home, he told me that my theory was quite possible.

I kept demanding that the Gods’ give me an explanation for my only daughter’s death.  I had been gifted with incredible home births (Isa’s being the most spectacular) and even more incredible Indigo, Crystal and Star children.  I simply could not understand this twist of fate.  Three days after my daughter’s death, I dreamt of her in heaven.  She played a violin for me and showed me her new world… she was one of heaven’s best musicians and had been called “home” to play the return music for all the lost souls of the tsunami.  She asked me to please understand, to have compassion, as this path was her plan & purpose and was more important to her than her life on Earth.  She told me she would be in high demand over the next years. It would take many moons for me to digest this dream.

Again, if you can do nothing other than pray, please do.  “Kuan Yin, She Who Hears the Cries of the World.  Be amongst us now as so many of our brothers and sisters are in pain.  Please grace our presence with some form of comfort and hope as despair seems to be everywhere.  Please provide us with all our earthy needs as the children will still grow, the babies will still be born and the survivors will need to go on!  Please do not let those blessed with prosperity, sink into forgetfulness and comfort as so many of our fellow humans on the planet suffer.  Please let us give generously from our hearts. Amen!” ( or

“Kuan Yin, Ascended Master who has walked before us.  Gentle Goddess who heals and forgives even the most evil and wicked.  Do not forsake us in our time of need”, I prayed.

“I am here.  Find me anywhere”, she replied.

This prayer and the Goddess’ answer conjured up a memory that occurred just one month prior.  I was in Venice Beach, California, walking with a friend of mine named Mary.  She had been saying the day before that she wanted a statue of Kuan Yin like the one I had in my home.  She was wondering where could she purchase such an item.  As we walked the beach, peering at all the vendors; she, I and our children were all drawn to an old hippies booth which was full of misc… junk.  Old toys, magazines, baseball cards, incense, oils, garden items, etc…  As soon as we walked into the booth, I could feel Her.  I just knew in my bones that a Kuan Yin statue was to be found here.  Sure enough, in the very back of the booth, hidden in an obscure corner, was the exact statue I own.  Mary now has her Kuan Yin.  How timely!

I had a dream the other night.  I dreamt that I was sleeping and dreaming and while I was asleep and dreaming, a group of extraterrestrials landed on the earth, simultaneously touching ground.  As they sunk into the soil of Earth, an electricity left their body through their feet sending out a beam of magnetic energy which travelled until all their energies were connected (looking much like a scene from Avatar).  This energy, and their power, altered the memory codes on Earth.  The ET’s held their position for 24 hours until every human could feel the new electrical currents.  In my dream, as I woke up, I woke up, awakened.  It was no longer an intellectual fact that I am powerful, it was rather, a body remembrance.  I knew without a doubt, I am the power.

There are miracles amongst us.  There are angels in human form.  There are ascended masters walking the planet.  Hear the soft wind…these times are a changing.  “Be the change you want to see in the world” says Ghandi.   Before the time of great sorrow has ended, millions more will lose their lives and their homes. Currently 1/6 of the planet is starving.  Hoards of people are in serious and desperate need.  Let us not forget the world situations currently playing out in the countries of Africa, Asia, India, Central America, the Middle East and the Caribbean. The  despair of the masses will not go unnoticed.  The winds will blow.  Combine those winds with the collective fear of the modern world as consumerism and money continue to disappear.  The strong winds grow, Tate says…change or die!   Go now, my friends and readers, compose a powerful prayer and help the old world disintegrate with grace!  Be the miracle.  Be the angel.  Walk into your role as the ascended master. Do not be afraid, Kuan Yin is here.  Her compassion can be found everywhere.  We are on the new Earth and yes, indeed, we are the Power!


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Gregorian New Year 2010

Vincent VanGogh

Happy New Year 2010

It’s hard not to celebrate our calendar shifting and changing into its new year despite its erroneous counting of time.

This New Year is most auspicious as it is a full moon, a blue moon and a partial eclipse of the moon.

I would like to wish all my readers a safe, joyous and incredible full moon with family, friends and loved ones!

I am busy wishing on a star and will post again on our first New Moon of 2010!


The Quickening

full moon caye caulker

I awoke on the first day of the Mayan Calendar 6th galactic night, November 8th, 2009, believing, as so many had foretold, that there was a possibility for the US dollar to crash, rather, what crashed, in a sweeping whoop, was one of my prime interpersonal relationships.  If I am honest with myself, the buildup to this catastrophe was in the making for 5 years due to a series of suppressed emotions, and yet, the suddenness with which it all revealed itself, came out of nowhere, like an unexpected natural disaster.  Ever since that day, the energies pouring onto our planet have almost rendered me speechless.  We are in the quickening.

I would like to again compare this time to a pregnant woman.  From conception through the 8th month, the baby has the comfort and security of its mother’s womb:  warm, dark, & safe.  Sometime in the latter part of that 8th month, the baby’s home, the womb, will no longer offer enough room for growth and the baby will have to prepare for its eventual journey through the birth canal.  The first step will be “to drop” from its position up high in the womb to a lower place in the pelvic cavity.  We are the baby, the Earth is our mother, we are in the 8th Era (the Ethical Era which can be likened to the 8th month of pregnancy), and it is time to drop, to quicken.

In order to drop, a baby will go through a lot of physical movements, he/she may need to turn themselves completely around in the womb.  As you can imagine, this can be uncomfortable, even painful, for the mother.  I remember in my own pregnancies experiencing nausea and feeling as if my equilibrium was very off.  In the next year, we will bear witness to monumental amounts of personal & earth movements as we, the babies, seek to find our new positions.  Remember, our old spaces can no longer offer the much-needed room for growth.  Breathe.  Breathe deeply.  No doctor, hospital, drug or entity outside of yourself can assist you through this process, there is only one way through these times and that is with your breath.   Interestingly enough, a mother whose baby has just quickened will carry an energized Auric glow, she will be “high” as a kite in her expecting phase. I am sure our blue planet is glowing magnificently. The mother will then get a period of rest (2-4 weeks) prior to her labor contractions.  Our period of rest will be the 7th galactic day which begins next November 2, 2010-February 11, 2011.  Our birth pains, contractions and labor will then begin in the 9th Era which synchronistically will last 260 days (the period of a woman’s gestation).  We still have a wee bit of a way to go before birth, or as many are calling it- our planetary ascension!

destino 8 months pregnant

Until then, we will be movers and shakers in this cosmic play.  Be aware, we have one more gateway/portal remaining- the 12/12, the last portal, until the “movements”, the quickening, begins in earnest.  A portal is always an entryway, a gateway.  Will you step through it?  I beseech you not to miss this opportunity as this portal offers an ability to bring to completion anything in your life that is “not working”, that is not serving your highest good and purpose.  You are being offered a shifting perspective, a new view into what can be,  a new dream, and a renewed world.  Won’t you embrace this portal then?  Do not be afraid of  its immense energy and power…like a tsunami wave reaching its peak, turn and face it.  I promise, it will not consume you, rather, it will embrace you on its wave of bliss and ecstasy.  On the Mayan Calendar, the glyph associated with this portal is called Manik:

“Fearlessly let the great tsunami wash over you,

for it is the surf

of the return path to the stars!

Ride its lilting electromagnetic waves

through the universes.”

(The Mayan Oracle, Spilsbury & Bryner)

Some people are questioning why the Gregorian Calendar dates are important if we are discussing the Mayan Calendar?  I tell you, do not underestimate the authority of numbers.  Numbers for the Maya can represent deities that carry specific powers and even an incorrect calendar can embody certain combinations that may deliver malignant or benevolent energies depending on their arrangement.  Kali, Indian Goddess of both destruction, violence & darkness and birth, cleansing & renewal will be our hostess of 12/12 portal.  Her gifts will be available in full force right through to the Solstice 12/21 as she bequeaths her powers unto you.  She says, “Go now- destroy all areas of your life that are being held captive by the Trickster energy” (Tarot Card Major Arcana #15 ):  stagnant, heavy, draining, or abusive energies.  Release this dead wood to the cosmos for renewal.  Allow gentle Mother Kali to help you birth a new day!

In Barbara Hand Clow’s astrograph report of new moon November 16, 2009, she states that the most important thing to do right now is isolate what change occured for you in the 6th galactic day.  She stresses the importance of continuing to bring this change to life in the 6th galactic night, no matter how small or seemingly insignificant.  For me, I began this blog.  It is clear I must continue to write- that is my purpose  and my contribution to the quickening and actually it is the very gift that must be offered up as my part of the co-creation of the new world.  What is yours?  This quickening will be managed so much easier if you are living and breathing your soul calling.

Planet Earth and all her inhabitants are ascending, quickly now, and if you can’t feel the tsunami wave of these times then you are simply over medicated.  And I can imagine you are on your way to a very challenging, breech birth.   Does anyone remember Kenneth Graham’s “Wind in the Willows”?  We are about to embark on Mr. Toad’s Wild Ride; a treacherous, bumpy, adventurous journey into the unknown.  If you have tools to remain centered, then like any birth, you will become one with the forces of nature and reap a successful harvest as you move through the abyss.

My blessings go out to you as you prepare for our quickening on Mother Earth/Gaia/Madre Tierra.


(hoping everyone can hear their birth song and find their way to their path of purpose)