“A religion without a goddess is halfway to atheism.”
― Dion Fortune



Goddess of the Sea. Mother of the Sea. Mother of Pearl. Mother of Dreams & Secrets. Empress of the Seven Oceans. Orisha of the Oceans. Womb of Creation. Constantly Coming Woman. Stella Maris (Star of the Sea). Mama Watta (Mother Water). Truly, THE Mother of All. Her name is spelled in many different ways depending on where one resides: Yemeya, Yemaya, Ymoja, Yemaja, Iemanja, Yemalla, Yemalia, Yemonja, Yemana, Balianna.

In Yoroba land, from where this Goddess originates, Yeye Omo Eja means The Mother Whose Children Are Fish. We begin as fish-like fetuses in the waters of our mothers’ wombs, we must traverse those early embryonic fluids and evolve to our human baby form. Both modern-day science and ancient cultures have an understanding that all life originated from the sea. And, one day, it is to these waters and the earth itself that we shall again return.


In the oral tradition of the Yoruba tribe of West Africa, originally Yemeya was the river goddess of their largest tributary, Ogun River, which was well-known to bring fertility. She resided far away from any ocean. She was an Orisha, a powerful force of nature. Yemeya was married to Aganyu, both were mortal god-humans, children of other mortal god-humans, created by Olodumare, the God Almighty.

Together, Yemeya and Aganyu had a son named Orungun. When Orungun became a teenager, he rebelled against his Father by raping his Mother. When Orungun attempted to rape his Mother a second time, she escaped to the highest mountaintop, the Chappal Waddi also known as the Mountain of Death, where she evoked all manner of retribution and justice by cursing her son until he died. Soon after, Yemeya found herself pregnant for her son, thus it came to pass, on that majestic mountaintop, 7900 feet above sea level, that she gave birth to 14 powerful nature spirits called Orishas. As her uterine waters spilled forth, a Great Flood ensued, which in turn created our world’s seven oceans. In her deep and regretful sorrow, Yemeya decided to take her life. Much later her bones birthed the first mortal man and woman, hence, Yemoja is called the Mother of All.

When her people were brutally captured and hoarded onto the slave ships, Yemaya had no choice but to gather her Spirit and go on this frightful journey, to protect and to guide the lives of her tribe, granting as many as possible safe passage to the New World. Africans, from this area, having never experience the expansive salty waterways, and under severe distress, naturally elevated Yemeya to the Goddess of the Ocean. The African diaspora brought Yemeya to a new land where she was to be worshiped by West Africans, Afro-Caribbeans and Brazilians alike for many purposes… fisherman pray to her for fish and prosperity, travelers and sailors pray to her for safe passage and calm seas, mothers pray to her for protection and guidance, maidens & women with empty wombs pray to her for fertility, all manners of people pray to her for seductive prowess and wealth, inhabitants of the coastal terrains pray to her for benevolent waves and gentle storms, and, of course, in those early slave days, Africans and their offspring simply prayed to survive.

Dedicated to slaves thrown over during Middle Passage!

Dedicated to slaves thrown over during Middle Passage!

According to legend, Yemaya’s first gift to the Africans of the New World was a sea shell in which her voice could always be heard. To this day we honor Yemaya when we hold a shell to our ear in order to hear her voice, the ocean. Listen!


I met Yemeya while living on the islands of Belize. She taught me how to float, how to surrender and definitely how to play in her waters. She reminded me to take time to replenish, to nurture and to nourish myself. She brought me coral, conch pearls and all manner of conch jewelry in which to beautify my body. She bewitched the fisherman on my behalf ensuring a constant supply of good seafood to my home and restaurant. She protected my young boys as they traversed the Caribbean Sea, learning to swim, to snorkel, to dive, to haul lobster, to spearfish and to play. She saved my life one stormy day on the sea while I was drowning by sending me her most treasured consort, Old Man of the Sea, Juni Zladivar. She entertained me with dolphins, turtles, manatees and many more sea creatures. She magically enlivened my life with her incandescent colors on the early morning seascapes. She healed my aches and pains with her salty waters. She comforted me when life seemed like it offered more than I could bear. She is my unwavering, most trustworthy friend. She continues to be my benefactor!


Yemeya embodies all aspects of a balanced, healthy Mother archetype… Deeply caring, kind, compassionate, understanding, forgiving, protective, comforting, empowered, abundant, providing, resplendent, nurturing, creative, merciful, generous, forbidding, powerful and stern.

“Invoke Yemeya for blessings, compassion, wisdom, fertility, creation, riches, inspiration, mother hood, female power, natural wealth, love spells, white magic, sea spells, fertility rituals, water magic, women’s issues, childbirth, sustaining life, washing away sorrows, revealing mysteries, acquiring ancient wisdom, protecting the home, learning not to give your power away, and comforting children in crisis. Invoke her as Erzukie for beauty, good fortune, and good health. Invoke her as Yemoja to cure infertility, as Yemana for rain, as Emanjah for teaching children, as Yemaya Olokun for dream magic and protecting babies in the womb; and as Yemaya Atarmagwa for money spells. Invoke Yemaya as Agwe for affection and blessings.” (

Consider this when building an altar to her…


Yemeya is worshiped by crescent or full moons and on February 2nd as well as the Eve of Summer Solstice. Her lucky number is seven, like the seven seas. Her favorite day of the week is Saturday. Don the colors of blue, white or silver. She loves the smell of raspberry and cinnamon. Her coveted Gems are lapis lazuli, quartz crystals, pearls, mother of pearl, coral, moonstone, aquamarine, and turquoise. Naturally, she loves fish and all the creatures of the sea including ducks, as well as doves, but especially peacocks as they have her favorite colors. Her most coveted food and flower objects are oranges, tropical flowers, watermelons, yams, grains, seaweeds and other plants growing in the sea. Bring additional offerings of melons, molasses, whole fried fish and/or pork rinds to gain her favor.

Yemaya has graced my presence to grant me her energies: a woman who has been uprooted, relocated and challenged to unbearable extremes. A mother who has created, birthed, loved, cared, and tended her child only to lose that cherished baby. An empress who has been adored, worshiped and exalted and then quite suddenly, deviled, denied and enslaved only then to rise again to her rightful and truthful position and station in life.

As I call upon the sacred energies of the Mt. Shasta glaciers, high up in the Northern California Cascade ranges, galaxies away from West Africa, I hear Yemaya… she shows me the drought conditions of the once abundant Sacramento headwaters, she turns my attention to the polluted, rapidly declining state of our Seven Seas, she holds me (and all of us Wo/Men) accountable for this imbalance.

The Goddess speaks…”Until the Mother is worshiped and returned to her rightful place as the eternal creative force of this Earth, your world will remain in turmoil and the balance of your eco-systems will continue to deteriorate. Until the Goddess is exalted and revered for the never-ending source of everything she provides, human existence itself stands threatened. It is time now to carefully listen as the Mother is calling!”

“Only women who are enabled to sense a female divinity within their own spirit can bring about the profound changes that need to be made if humanity is to last much longer as one of earth’s life forms. The survival of any species depends on the nurturing behavior of its females, not the aggressive behavior of its males. It seems clear that the best hope for humanity is to return to its pre-patriarchal ethic of male submission to the Goddess spirit, not in the hierarchical sense that men understand as power-over.” Barbara G. Walker from Restoring the Goddess

The Benevolent Blue Light

In the Fall of 2010, I wrote an article entitled “The Nexus Approaches”, regarding the galactic alignment of 2012 and the role the Dark Lords were playing in destabilizing the Earth prior to this powerful alignment. I need to repost this article, in part, as the information, it seems, is still crucial due to some of our most recent current events. In a nutshell lets take a look at a couple of areas…

*the economy is wackier than ever with a slew of global resignations occurring at the highest levels in the banking world, trillions of dollars in fake financial transfers & bonds, and the facts rolling out that the US is actually in way worse economic shape than the Greeks (so why pick on the Greeks?),

*the environment is still under hell and high water as mass animal deaths continue to occur globally (look at this rolling list of animal die-offs in 2012 alone, radiation from Fukushima has far exceeded levels measured at Chernobyl when evacuations were demanded and the Gulf of Mexico’s oil fiasco is far from over, but we seem to be immune to these facts anymore,

*world safety is at a heightened state with war and rumours of more war… I made the mistake of watching a video newscast from Syria where the atrocities I witnessed are, to say the least, heartbreaking, and I could not fully digest that I am still living on a planet where such archaic behaviour is actually accepted. I realized I have had the good fortune to live in an extremely privileged and beautiful world (a protected garden of sorts) that actually exists in the midst of extreme world chaos & turmoil.

I find it necessary to revisit our global decay in light of new information released by two important & respectable lightworkers (Aluna Joy and Barbara Marciniak) whose information is beautifully preparing us for an imminent & extreme shift into the 5th World, as prophesied by all indigenous cultures.

“From that 1987 date until now”, Mr. Barrios says, “we have been in a time when the right arm of the materialistic world is disappearing, slowly but inexorably. We are at the cusp of the era when peace begins, and people live in harmony with Mother Earth. We are no longer in the World of the Fourth Sun, but we are not yet in the World of the Fifth Sun. This is the time in-between, the time of transition.

“As we pass through transition there is a colossal, global convergence of environmental destruction, social chaos, war, and ongoing Earth changes. All this, Mr. Barrios says, was foreseen via the simple, spiral mathematics of the Mayan calendars. It will change, Mr. Barrios observes. Everything will change. He said Mayan Daykeepers view the Dec. 21, 2012 date as a rebirth, the start of the World of the Fifth Sun. It will be the start of a new era resulting from — and signified by — the solar meridian crossing the galactic equator, and the earth aligning itself with the center of the galaxy.” Carlos Barrios, Mayan Datekeeper

26,000 years ago, the galactic center of the Milky Way emitted an enormous energetic wave we have come to call the Nexus. It does this every 26,000 years, as they say, there is nothing new under the sun. This emissions are what have caused the tumultuous transitions from each of our previous world eras. If you are not familiar with these facts, simply research indigenous tribes and their 1st, 2nd, 3rd, 4th, and soon to be 5th worlds. It is their belief that their have been 5 worlds, each and every preceding world has ended in global upheaval, always heralded by a divine counting system of 5,125 years or so, that is actually keeping a ticktock beat to the 26,000 year galactic alignment. We just so happen to be approaching the 5th of these alignments (hence, the 5th world of peace). This is the grand finale of the play!

What was released all that time ago will soon reach our earth in full strength. The Nexus has its own personal rhythm and does take some time to cross the galaxies and skies. I believe its arrival correlates to the Mayan Long Count End Date of December 2012. Afterall, the center of the Milky Way is where the Maya believe their Creator Hunab Ku resides. Our Creator has sent out an energy impulse, this Supreme Being is blowing us/creation a kiss. Unfortunately, our consciousness resides too far away from our original empowered selves to simply receive that kiss in bliss.

That incoming energy is meant to completely change our world, in other words, to wake us all up to who we are: infinite Gods and Goddesses with incredible abilities and powers. This incoming beam of bluish-white light will alter and restore our DNA from its current state which only uses 3% of its capacities to a renewed state of 100% remembrance. Translated: 97% of what scientist call junk DNA will be reactivated. WoW…a jolt of electricity that courses through our veins, awakening our souls and minds. No one is going to escape this phenomena. Thank you Hunab Ku!

“The human race is headed towards a great change, many spirits will return to the stars and something magnificent is going to happen!” Astral Walker

Ready for the magnificent? Take a peak at Aluna Joy’s most recent article

When I originally wrote The Nexus Approaches, we were deeply embedded in a war with the Dark Lords. Things have dramatically shifted since then and I am happy to report the Operation Victory was indeed a success. “Continue on in your fight against those who have oppressed you and who wish to enslave you, and we will continue our fight on our front lines. We will never retreat, and we will never desert you. We will together succeed in this epic struggle, and the forces of Light will prevail against the forces of darkness. So it has been written. And so it shall be.”
We are the Galactic Federation of Light.

And, to confirm that I do not live in lala looloo land, take the time to watch Barbara Marciniak’s most recent video, where she clearly gives us a piece of Earth history with these so-called Dark Lords…

The benevolent ET’s, the light ones, are calling us home and their bioluminescent blue-white light is the signal. You can feel this with your heart. I most recently had a PremaBirthing Session (a type of rebirthing where the Ascended Masters welcome you to Earth in a reprogramming of one’s original birth story (trauma)). My heavenly Mother was a very benevolent Lady dressed in royal blue ropes. I couldn’t quite wrap my mind around who it was… Mary Magdalene, Mother Mary, The Lady of Guadalupe. What does it matte? Her energy was safe, compassionate and filled with unconditional love.

Let us recall the last sign in the Hopi prophecy which states that a blue planet from the Heavens will crash into Earth causing earth destruction, this last sign is what all elders are awaiting as our entry into the 5th world. Possibly, it is not a planet, but an energy wave: the Nexus?

Lightwalkers, we are going home now. We have felt the Nexus approaching for years, even if we could or could not put words to it. Our Creator desires our remembrance and this collective shift to magnificence is welcome. Stay in your heart, the Dark Lords will lose power, we will live in a world dreamed upon by the visionaries, masters and avatars of our history. It is promised and all is well!

We are closer than ever…Our Nexus Approaches

onward and forward in these most pivotal times,
I send out my blessings,

Winter Solstice 2011 to Winter Solstice 2012: The Promise

Winter hibernation, cold, snow, retreat, rest, retire,
gather, share, meditate, cook, ignite with fire,
embrace, retrospect, die to be born…
take a deep breath, as we catapult into the Great Unknown-

Winter! The word and the concept have taken on a whole new meaning… I still cannot quite wrap my mind around the fact that I am no longer in my Caribbean home, but located now in the small and extremely privileged mountain town of Ashland, Oregon. I met a man here who claims to be the gatekeeper of Mt.Shasta heralding 22 years on the mountain as a guide. He profusely thanked me for bringing the south to the north, for carrying the energies of Mayaland to the Pacific Northwest, but specifically to this area. He firmly believes that the mountain called and I answered. To tell the truth I have no idea why I was moved (spiritually/geographically) but I was… and now I am here to embrace an earth winter (which incidentally will be the first one in my 42 years on the Earth plane as I have always been located in very warm places). I am sure it is no accident that this is where I will be for the Winter of 2011-2012. Did the polar shift occur? Possibly, I missed it, cause my whole world sure is turned upside down. Not to mention that my menstrual cycle has once again done a flip-aroo placing me back on an old and familiar cycle time.

Last year started off with a bang as all the animal die off stories rolled in and collectively we knew we were in for a very intense year…I don’t know of anyone who escaped big lessons, big moves, big losses, big gains, big pains, big releases, big grief, big rage as an unrelenting energy pulsating with change poured in from the galactic unknown… Hunab Ku- we feel you, like never before. Most of the time I simply wanted to get away from myself and yet, there was nowhere to go and nothing to assist with that form of escape. It was time to simply turn and face the mirror, hence, greet the light (which is blinding). “This last year has been difficult for many of us. The amount of energy coming to our planet now exceeds anything we have ever experienced before. Energy and life itself has been sped up! Many of us are experiencing significant changes in our personal, professional, spiritual and public lives. This is because, as Grandfather Eesawu taught, in the days of great change we will each go through being put into the great sieve and shaken up, letting everything that does not support your highest self and greatest good fall away. Not one of us can escape this.” (Little Grandmother)

2011 was a practice run for what we will now all greet in 2012… if you have become proficient in the new energies, then you shall fare well in these next moons and months, which promise to be historically monumental. Just think, 2012. Collectively so much fear has been instilled into the mass consciousness that humanity can’t help but create a few disaster scenarios. On the other hand, 2012 is the date for the much awaited alignment of the Sun with the Galactic Equator, a planetary sigh and pause of our Creator, Hunab Ku, as the Great Source speaks to humanity, “aahhh, perfection has been achieved!” Afterall, a multi-thousand-year strategy to reorient Humankind back to its intended, healthy polarity is about to occur” (Ken Carey) or I would say “is occurring”!

“On December 21, 2012, something will occur in our galaxy that happens only once every 26,000 years. Our sun will line up with the center of our galaxy, or the “galactic equator”, during the Winter Solstice. Many present-day astronomers, as well as those from the Mayan civilization 1500 years ago, believe this will cause a catastrophic event. Others believe it to be little more than a cycle – which has taken place since the universe was formed – and will be just another day.”

Just another day, now that’s funny, and it might be true, December 21, 2012 may be just another day but there will be nothing ordinary about all the days building up to that particular date. Can you feel it? We are in the time of no time, the prophecies are being fulfilled, the much awaited signs have been accounted for and we are heap deep entrenched on entering the new age with some unforgettable moments… Little Grandmother is constantly reminding us that the poles are indeed shifting. I just love Ken Carey’s view and opinion on this topic as he believes the poles are shifting in our minds.

“Our species mental polarity shift is by far the most critical of all—for it will fundamentally flip our perception upside down and inside out, and I mean that literally. It will also instantly negate many of our still primitive (and some downright reptilian!) assumptions. This reversal will trigger tremendous and monumental changes across the face of the earth. When we change our minds, the world is changed. Simply described, it is the polarity reversal that will result in human decision-making no longer being distorted by fear, but instead becoming creatively super-motivated by one or more of Love’s countless intentions to bring out the full universal potential of our now-earth-bound experience. Our every thought and our every action will soon be harmoniously motivated by Love, as they are now disharmoniously distorted by Fear.” (Ken Carey, The Starseed Transmissions)

So like the caress of a lover, the hug of a mother, the smell of a rose in bloom, the taste of delectable chocolate bon-bons, the first sip of a fine wine… the promise has been extended, and that is our arrival into the heartland, a world where the mind has awakened. Believe it or not, all 7 billion of us are in this awakening process together and if you are alert then you will hear the stories of the ancient and the modern and the future… and in these stories, you will find your own divine blueprint which will be guided by the heart and motivated by love. Will it be easy? Haha, Is childbirth easy? No, this labor of love will be accomplished unmedicated, mostly unassisted and always with the forces of nature at our side. we are actually knee-deep in birth fluids and blood, just a few more primal screams and one good push…

I have become aware in this birth process of my own deep cellular memories of catastrophe, gripped by a core fear of impending earth doom, uncomprehending of the true ascension energies, I gave way to a vision of doom and believed in a tale of tragedy. I am birthing and purging, I am pushing forward while vomiting energetic debris. I wouldn’t mind exciting the Earth but it’s not to be as I am here to witness the grand finale of this tale being told. I am here to usher in a good birth, after all, that is my expertise.

Navajo Changing Woman

An Indian Prayer

Whose voice I hear in the winds,
And whose breath gives life to all the world,
hear me! I am small and weak, I need your
strength and wisdom.

Let Me Walk In Beauty, and make my eyes
ever behold the red and purple sunset.

Make My Hands Respect the things you have
made and my ears sharp to hear your voice.

Make Me Wise so that I may understand the
things you have taught my people.

Let Me Learn the lessons you have hidden
in every leaf and rock.

I Seek Strength, not to be greater than my
brother, but to fight my greatest

Make Me Always Ready to come to you with
clean hands and straight eyes.

So When Life Fades, as the fading sunset,
my spirit may come to you
without shame.

(translated by Lakota Sioux Chief Yellow Lark in 1887)

Dragon Wind Chime Sing Me a Song Through This Core Meltdown

I have recently read a fascinating article by Richard Sauder entitled Fuk U Shima
( In the article he discusses his ayahuasca ceremonies & experiences as he is led to see that the Earth, the ecology and all creation including humans are under vicious, unrelenting attack. That would be right in line with what Little Grandmother said, that lightworkers everywhere are indeed under attack. He also had a vision that was a precursor to the Japanese incidences of late, hence, the name of the article, Fuk U Shima. Richard’s premise is that we cannot fight the Dark Lords in the traditional sense, with violence, but we have an obligation to become spiritually enlightened , what he calls UpWising! He believes we better upwise real fast, or die a cruel death at the hands of the beast. Honestly, I couldn’t agree more.

I have immense respect for plant medicines and their messages, and for anyone who has had the fortitude to embark on one of those journeys, you, and only you, know full well that plant medicines are no mushroom/LSD play day in the park, but a serious ego ass-kicking that offers enlightenment not only for ones personal state of mind but for the planetary collective at large. Plant medicines do not offer FUN hallucinogenic experiences, but deep-seated, long-lasting healing on the physical and astral planes.

So here we are…oil spills, extreme weather anomalies, genetically modified foods, bee colony collapse (and we all know what Einstein said about this event), genetically modified microbes, orchestrated genocides, Middle East/African Wars, the new bacterial Super, superbug and most frightening a media cover-up of an impending world-wide nuclear holocaust. “In my view, we are seeing Black Magic of the darkest sort at work, and I mean that very seriously. We are seeing unimaginably deep Evil channeled into our realm by the very darkest and foulest of entities. Whether those entities are human, or non-human, or humans in the thrall of non-human forces, you can be sure that the Fukushima crisis is no ordinary event. The groundwork for all of this was laid decades ago, awaiting the present day.
First Hiroshima. Now “Fuk U” Shima.
The deadly malice is transparent. Connect the dots for yourself.
I reiterate: either a lot of humans urgently Upwise and real soon, or we are toast. Done for.
The fate of humanity and this planet hangs in the balance. How much do you love the Earth and life itself?
” Richard Sauder

Following his article is a plethora of interesting comments. One of his readers had also embarked on the infamous ayahuasca journey, Picasso Dream says, ” In several of my ayahuasca experiences, I have seen a dark future. After the oil started spewing in the Gulf of Mexico, I drank the medicine. I saw earthquakes, water, the destruction of the Gulf, strange images of destruction and despair. I was told it was karma, that people had stopped caring about the planet and humanity. I also saw glimpses, just tiny glimpses, of beauty beyond the darkness. It is the birth of a new paradigm, a new level for humanity. Vibrating at a higher level is the key. I wrote about that here ( My last ayahuasca session was on March 3rd, 2011 – all I felt was a connection to humanity and pure love, stronger than I have ever felt before. I want to drink the medicine again, but I am afraid of a dark vision. I will wait until she calls me. March 24, 2011 3:52 PM” Kelly Ann Thomas

Spiritually awake souls have been working on themselves for a long, long time now….and even they, we, are going to be severely challenged in this quickening as what we are experiencing right now can only be termed a core meltdown. Forget tipping point, that has come and gone, humanity now finds itself in a much deeper predicament, and this predicament will lead everyone down roads not yet traversed.

I feel like I am a baby in the birth canal and I have to get out fast as there is feces floating in the womb with me… I can see and hear this beautiful doula who is urging me out, who is urging me down the canal… I can sense the fear and anxiety of my mother, she feels danger: there is real danger. The light beacons me, the sights, sounds and taste of a new world are calling me. I want to push through.

Core Meltdown…its all around me and all I can do is focus on the sound of my new wind chime. One of my readers, inspired by my life or my writings or our connection sat down and freely, from the generosity of her gorgeous heart, hand-made me an exquisite wind chime she named Mayan Cenote. That Wind Chime is my call to the new earth as within the vibration of the chime is contained love, beauty, honesty, generosity, integrity and talent… all the vibrations of our new earth. I urge anyone reading this to support her heartfelt creations (, to be conscious of your purchases, to be aware of who you give your energy to these days.

Our time is short… our days are numbered… for those who know how to breathe, meditate, stay centered, relax, stick to the center of the river, believe and have faith in the dawning of a new cycle, we are so ready… we have no fear… our vibrations are exponentially uplifting. We have UpWised! The masses though are so extremely prozac-numbed, media-dumbed and eternally contributing to the planets demise, their fate will be sealed in the 2012 doomsday prophecies and end time future scenarios that Hollywood purports.

Be vigilant though, if you think these next months are going to be a stroll through a new age store, please keep in mind that Jose Arguelles passed away while channelling the planetary shifts. That’s right, he died. Now, anytime I speak about people dying, someone says its doom talk. Death is not about doom, it’s about death, a transformation from the physical body to the spiritual world and back again. This shift we are all in is going to be mind-blowing and many people are going to die. If you think the GFL is going to descend and save the day then I invite you to visit Somalia, Haiti, the Gulf of Mexico, Afghanistan, Iraq, Syria. Ethiopia and now, Japan (to mention a few places of heavy human suffering on the Earth) to witness the unfolding situations and wake up to the fact that only we are going to save the day.

“All that is needed for evil to succeed is that decent human beings do nothing.”
-Edmund Burke

With that said I will tell you about my plant medicine journey. I was taking yopo (a different type of plant medicine that must be snorted) with a Shaman here in Belize for the third time. In my vision, I found myself on the Earth in a terrain with no water. I was so dehydrated, death defyingly thirsty. There were dead animals and dead people everywhere and there was no clean water to be found. I could hear drums far off in the forest. If only I could cross this desert terrain to the trees and the drums, I would happily die in peace, I thought. I passed out momentarily and when I opened my eyes there was a angelic, beautiful young lady who resembled my stepdaughter, Sarah, giving me blessed, holy water from a gourd. I still wanted to die, but my body insisted on movement and I made it to the forest where I encountered a group of South American shamans playing drums. As I approached them, their tempo changed to one of such intensity and fearful build up that I willed them to stop, just stop with that horrible beat. They began to speak in an ancient Andean language that I understood well and they said, “She must live through the big bang, she is needed.” All I was thinking then was, “No, no, not the big bang, I don’t want to go there.” But they played me to that place I was fearing with their anxious drum beats. In the end, as with every fear you meet and greet, it was intensely beautiful: the big bang was our forcefully, exceptional, evolutionary altering Earth birth.

When I came through the yopo ceremony, in real life, there was an incredibly sexy Mexican man playing the flute for me and singing my soul back into wholeness.
All was well-
All is well-

2011 Time collapses,
the economy collapses,
unfit structures collapse-
people collapse-

Core Meltdown,
Reactors 1,2,3,4,5,6
what is truth?
what is lies?
our human drama intensifies;

meanwhile I am busy picking flowers, making spiritual baths, and listening to the sound of my wind chime.

Three things you can’t hide: The Sun, The Moon and The Truth.” ~ Buddha
I love my life!

Under The Ceiba: The Sacred World Tree of the Maya

The Ceiba Tree is the sacred World Tree of the Maya, as such, it has many representations. According to the mythology of the ancient Maya of Central America, where I live, the great Ceiba tree stood at the center of the earth, connecting our Earth world to the Spirit world in the heavens above. The Ceiba descends 9 levels into the underworld, which is not considered hell, but a cold, damp, dark place called Xibalbá. “The presence of the Ceiba in the underworld is a very ancient concept throughout the Maya world. In the sixteenth century, Diego de Landa, first bishop of Yucatan, recorded that the souls of the benevolent dead entered “a place where nothing would give pain, where there would be an abundance of food and delicious drinks, and a refreshing and shady tree they called Yaxché, the Ceiba beneath whose branches and shade they might rest and be in peace forever.” ( The underworld is in fact not a place of punishment, but a place where darkness may go to be transformed to light.

The bridge from the underworld to the heavens is middle Earth, our Earth. The Ceiba then reaches upward 13 levels to the heavens where Hunab Ku, their Supreme Deity, resides at the top. Every Maya village, both ancient and modern, is centered around a Ceiba as this tree offers protection, enlightenment, prosperity and eternal life. Even today, as forest are being cleared, it is not uncommon to see the workers leave in place their sacred Ceiba, such is its significance to their lives. Hunab Ku, is not only Supreme Creator, but its energy represents the very source from which all consciousness springs. The Ceiba tree and this Deity’s importance cannot be underestimated now in the closing days of the Mayan Calendar.

The Mayan Calendar, which is quickly counting down to 13-0-0-0-0-, will commence with an extraordinary astrological event of our Earth and Sun conjuncting with the intersection of the Milky Way and the Solar System’s ecliptic cycle forming a cross in the sky. This cross has been symbolized by the Maya as a Ceiba Tree and it marks the end of a cycle and the beginning of a new era. The Ceiba Tree, the Tree of Life, is where all life force begins and ends, and sitting in its center is Hunab Ku, often thought of as a God, but which is really a point: a point from which all consciousness originates. A place from which everything is either created or destroyed in very predictable cyclic patterns. Soon our Earth, the Sun and the center of the Milky Way, Hunab Ku, will line up into that Tree of Life design and we will be passing through that gateway, and as we pass through the portal, our consciousness is upgraded, evolved, created anew again. Also, what no longer works is destroyed.

Now, let’s look at this in light of the most recent Earth changes in Japan. An earthquake occurred, and a tsunami followed on its tail. These are two natural events that will occur from time to time on the earth. A lot of people speak about Haarp, quite honestly I do not put much thought into that, as this intensification on the Earth is part of the needed shifting and moving which will get us ready for that upcoming MilkyWay alignment. In fact, there’s much more natural movements to come. What is most unnatural is the nuclear situation that came on the heels of this event. That is catastrophically disastrous and with that said, I even believe this is a miracle. The Galactics have said so many times, they cannot come, they cannot land, they cannot fully disclose until we lay down our nuclear armament. Will Japan lead us to that reality? Will we actually learn our lessons? Germany had 60,000 people form a human line and shield in front of one of their nuclear plants in protest, proclaiming, NO More Use of Nuclear Energy!  Enough is Enough!” Honestly, enough is enough. Aren’t we tired beyond belief of defending ourselves against ourselves? Have we not yet understood that this defense may lead to our own extinction?

When my husband moved to the island of Caye Caulker in 1987, he planted a Ceiba Tree, understanding its significance in the region, his intention was to protect our property. This Ceiba, the only one on the island, grew and flourished! In the year 2000, Hurricane Keith swept through our island, causing much damage including taking down our beloved Ceiba. A devastating category 4 hurricane that left its mark on the people of Caye Caulker with 80% of everyone’s house roofs’ missing, coconuts and other island trees and foliage uprooted, electrical poles knocked over and water supplies contaminated: the Red Cross declared a state of an emergency and requested all women and children be evacuated from the island until a clean-up had been commenced in full. That meant my three children and myself, all under the age of 5, had to relocate to the States, leaving my husband behind in the wake of this terrible mess to clean-up with all the other men.

Eventually, weeks later, after a large-scale restoration and clean-up project on the island, the children and I made it back to our much longed for and sweet home . As we entered our garden path, no longer lush in foliage, the first thing I noticed was our Ceiba tree lying supine on the ground. My husband hurriedly pointed out to me that the Ceiba had actually sprouted roots while lying on the ground, showing that it was indeed not dead. He knew I would interprete a dead Ceiba as an ominous sign of needing to leave the island. He told me he planned to jack the tree back up into standing position.

Sure enough, a few days later, he and a crew of ten men, including a disgruntled neighbor, who bears no goodwill for my family, gathered together to upright the Ceiba. Needless to say, their attempts failed miserably and the neighbor, who had the bright idea, to cut the top out of the Ceiba in order to lessen its weight, was almost seriously injured that day by the tree nearly falling on him.

Weeks later, my husbands good friend came by with an idea on how to help the tree. Together the two of them went at it. Two good souls with pure energy for the land. Together they braced the tree back into upright position. Our gorgeous Grandfather Ceiba flourished again and it sprouted a looper which went onto to be Caye Caulker’s second Ceiba Tree.

Figuratively, literally, or symbolically, 7 billion of us now all stand underneath the shade of the majestic Ceiba Tree. Billions of zombie-like souls exisitng here are at a total loss as to who they are, where they are and what is going on around them. Countless more are heavily sleeping under the tree awaiting a sudden wake-up jolt. A handful of disconnected and disembodied reptiles, disguised as humans, are working hard at taking down this tree for the immense natural resources that lie beneath it. A large army of followers stand at their beck and call ready to dispense their orders. And a handful of chosen benevolent beings are honoring and holding the World Tree in all its light, love and glory. Our efforts have been enormous and our numbers grow rapidly each day as our actions ripple out awakening all the innocent sleepers.

Hold hands now with the next available awake person and let us sing a spiritual song of healing to the Galaxy, “Kumbaya, Hunab, Kumbaya. Kumbaya, Hunab, Kumbaya. Someone’s crying, Hunab, someone’s crying. Come by here, My Lord, Come by here!” Someone’s laughing, Hunab, someone’s laughing. Kumbaya, Hunab, Kumbaya”.

At breathtaking speed, we are racing towards that Galactic Alignment that will offer everyone a place on the Sacred Tree of Life. Say farewell to those going to the Underworld and rejoice in their moment to tranform their lives to the light. Say hello to those kindred souls on middle Earth who are here to heal the damages left over from extremely Dark Ages. And celebrate those incredible beings who will ascend to the heavens to live with the Masters as their work is complete: José Argüelles (January 24, 1939 – March 23, 2011), brought us Earth Day, the Harmonic Convergence, widespread knowldege of the Mayan Calendar especially the date Dec. 21, 2012 and is considered to be the reincarnation of Pacal Votan, Mayan Prophet whos tomb was most recently sealed in Palnque, Mexico. His parting words via his partner, “The message that he wanted me to convey to kin is that everything is now the responsibility of the people who have heard the message. There is much work to be done. He said to tell all kin: “EVERYTHING IS PERFECT!!! Love everyone. Hate no one. God bless everyone.” He will now be assisting the closing of the cycle from the other side of the veil. “Perfect was my time of coming. Perfect was my mission. Perfect was the time of my going. Perfect is the discovery of my prophecy .” Telektonon 11.67 I extend all of my love to everyone in this most heartbreaking (but miraculous) time.”

I stand at my Ceiba this day and I bow down, I am humbled but I stand unafraid as I joyously await our alignment!


Our Old World is Rapidly Dying

“In other words, the latest BP gusher is not about a pocket of oil that will soon empty out,

BP has pierced the circulatory system of the Mother and she is bleeding!

This is the great cataclysm of our times that will likely cause mass extinctions of many species. (Barbara Hand Clow)”

My only daughter, Isabella Camille, died of dysentery when she was two years old.  She died in my arms.  Actually she spent the last moments of her life in my arms breathing her way to another dimension.

My aunt, a very religious woman, upon hearing of these circumstances, held me in her arms and whispered that this ways God’s gift to me.  A gift?  I couldn’t imagine anything about Isabella’s death being a gift.  It was heart-wrenching, to say the least.  It was a terribly tragic family event that was shared by my friends and the island community at large.  It was devastating and continues to be the most painful memories of mine and my immediate family’s life.  There was no gift, in my opinion, in my daughter dying.

Isabella died over five years ago.  I was the first one in my family to acknowledge and accept that she was dying.  My husband and sons were still running around, making phone calls, talking to doctors, crying, hoping, and doing anything distracting.  Most obviously, they were in denial that she could possibly die, that the universe could possibly be serving us such a reality.  Meanwhile, I understood the immensity of what was occurring and decided to be very present with Isabella in her last moments.  Like a master yogini, she used her breath to carry her spirit away and I took every one of those last breaths with her.  Like a doula who assists a mother during her birth process, I was a mother witnessing her daughter’s passing.

From the moment BP’s disaster occurred, I knew we were in the deep end for real now.  The world that we have known is dying. If you do not see this simple fact, it is because you choose not to.  It might be easier for you to distract yourself through theses times with action, movement and unending service.  I know the longer one remains in frenzied motion or denial, the harder it is to awaken to the truth.  I find it interesting how many people, in regards to the oil spill, are saying, “Obama isn’t doing anything, he isn’t doing enough”.  I am sorry to be the harbinger of this information but there is nothing truly to do at this point in time. We are desperately in need of divine intervention, nothing short of a miracle will suffice.  Meanwhile, we must gently hold our mother, be present with her through these end times, accept the forces of nature that choose to express her pains and breathe with her as she moves into the fifth dimension.  We must bear witness to her death throes; and be present with her as doula for her imminent re-birth.

Today, many moons away from Isabella’s death, I think I understand my aunt’s comments…

Since I have already traversed this death terrain with my daughter, I am fully beginning to understand that I am a strong bridge from our old world to the promise land.  I seem to have a foot in both worlds having full well experienced the peace of death and the miracle of birth; death and birth:  their energies are the same.

earthquakes shaking, breathe

volcanoes erupting, breathe,

hurricane coming, breathe,

oil spilling, breathe,

economy crashing, breathe,

species, systems, people and our old world dying, breathe,

painful labor contractions, breathe,

and through your deep, steady breaths, you will be guided to right and timely participation in the birth of our new earth.

For all those already thriving in the new energy, you are so blessed, lucky even…

for all those attempting to find their way… cross my path, I am your bridge.

As the Maya say, our world will go dark for three days and three nights, then, we will wake up under a new sun, a new earth;

we are almost there, (less than 500 days til calendar completes itself- Oct. 2011(


“What is about to transpire now is in other words not something that has ever happened before in the history of the universe. Maybe this impending change, partially unknown, causes the widespread denial that I feel dominate many people at the current moment.” (Carl Calleman)

The Great Purification: Cauac

“I am Cauac,

initiation of fire on the water,

purple flaming pyre,

and winnowing rain of final surrender.

If you seek my rapture,

my unspeakable passion for wholeness will purify you,

searing the very foundations on which

you have built your most cherished illusions.”

(The Mayan Oracle)

On the Mayan Calendar, this glyph portends a time of profound quickening and extreme purification.  Cauac’s known qualities are purification, transformation, reunion, light body, activation for ascension, thunderbeings, lightning path, initiation by fire and the ecstasy of freedom.  My guides kept whispering the words “purge” to me for over one month but I couldn’t quite grab the gist of what they wanted me to transmit.  It took my husband actually getting very sick with food poisoning to make the point painfully clear.  In his 9 days of illness, he physically purged “everything” held in his system, then he had to revive his body with good nutrition, rest, sunshine, love and gentleness in the days that followed.  He told me he came to his personal wall of death and had to make a decision to stay or go.  He went about the Great Purification quite literally, I believe most of us will accomplish this same feat, literally or figuratively.  It is more than clear to me that the time has come to shed all unwanted debris, if you choose to or not.

Some people have been experiencing the purge as their structures fall away to be rearranged, or their relationships undergo endings and transitions, or their emotions overwhelm them to the point of medication and/or their physical bodies experience daily unheard of  aches and pains.  In the time of Cauac, one must clear the old karmas, release the old stories & judgements, let go of the unhealthy patterns and basically get your bodies in shape to be a light vehicle and sacred temple.  Afterall, we are on a spiritual journey and light mission, remember?

Facebook is so timely.  I have never experienced anything quite like this networking & communication tool that allows the timelines of the past, present and future to collide.  Did you think you could escape the old lover and your issues/karma together?  Oh no, he/she just found you on facebook!  Even your enemies are asking to be your facebook friends.  You can’t run, nor can you hide in this energy…it is time to face all one’s thoughts, for better or worse, and to reconcile all one’s feelings towards others, for better or worse.

Facebook is also an incredible marketing tool as so many of us have come to realize as we create personal or business fan clubs.  But Facebook is currently under scrutiny having experienced “privacy issues”.  The world is in uproar that their privacy has been invaded.  Kid yourself not- there is no privacy left.  As we move towards a telepathic, transparent planet, there is nothing that can be hidden, nothing to safeguard from the masses, no secret contracts to tuck away into the safety boxes by night.  Like the original people of Jean Auel’s  Clan of the Cave Bear, no-one can lie or deceive.  No-one would even attempt to lie as it would be painfully obvious, unheard of, strange and absolutely without dignity.  Behave now as if everyone can read your mind because  in a blink of time everyone will be able to read your mind and yes, we can actually thank visionary Mark Zuckerman and his Facebook for blasting open the telepathic paths & portals of the future.

Our world is so full of magic, it always has been.  On May 8th a new crop circle was created and discovered.  The design shed more clarity on this “purge”.  A world below ascending towards a new world.  A world above, descending to give assistance.  A new world created by the merging of the two.  Imagine though, in this new world created from the two- heavy, dense frequencies cannot be imported.  They must be purged from our systems so that we can safely arrive to meet our galactic neighbors.

At the moment our world is so riddled with dangers.  Volatile, unpredictable, insecure moments.  We are truly in the pregnancy time, 8th month, when Mama Earth herself is feeling overwhelmed by her upcoming birth.  I can remember this time in my own pregnancies when all I wanted to do was vomit due to the immense realization that I was in a situation that was going to be very intense.   Yes, we, as the human race, are all in the very, very deep end of the sea.   And at this moment, the sea is about to choke us for lack of oxygen or slick us full of seeping oil that can’t seem to cease its flow.  I am requesting all shamans to kindly step to the scene to play rescue on this ridiculous man-made disaster.  Or maybe its just part of  the plan:  part of our current earth game, “as the purge continues”.   Our galactic friends do seem to be reminding us that even through the overwhelming purge symptoms, we can actually be beautiful pregnant mama awaiting her birth in joyful anticipation (see first crop circle of 2010 below).

We have moved through the frist half of the 6th galactic night (mayan calendar).  The second half is suppose to be more action packed, more intense in the astrological alignments we will be facing and faster, so much faster!  See if you can wrap your mind around that.  Barbara Hand Clow said, ” Personally, I’ve found the pace of time acceleration during the Galactic Night Six to be almost unbearable.”   I couldn’t agree more. I am getting a royal ass kicking at the moment.  She further states that “There is no longer any question that time acceleration is influencing our times, as we seem to be in the middle of a new level of increase. Since the Spring Equinox, there has been a rapid wind-up of events in the world that makes many of us feel like reality is transforming three times faster.”  Faster and faster- round and round we go- there’s certainly no stopping the show now.

And Aluna Joy who felt the energies of the first crop circle descend on the evening of May 8th as she was in group meditation says she is  “noticing many symptoms of this new activation. Time and space is beginning to wobble even more erratically than before. We seem to be loosing track of time easily. The day simply disappears. We are not sleeping very well . . . again. There is lots of tossing and turning in the night. We are hearing reports of many unusual dreams. We are feeling huge power surges followed by energy drop-outs. There were many reports of nausea, and body aches and pains. Many felt deep grief.  Some felt like they were walking on water. Others said that when they closed their eyes at night, everything was spinning. There have been visual disturbances, inner ear issues, throat and thyroid issues, cold feet (from being between worlds) and even a weird symptom of having tongue dryness. These symptoms are already subsiding here in Sedona, but they seem to be spreading across the earth quickly.”

Cauac, the great purification of the body temple.  Cauac, the lightning storm that shatters all illusions.  Cauac, the initiation by fire that moves us from separation to ascension.  Cauac, the final transformation.  Welcome- it is your time!

This full moon is known as “baptism under fire”,

maybe they are going to light up the oil on the sea as some have discussed-

In light and love,